bipolarbearschristmasstories:

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bipolarbearschristmasstories:

  • I’m capable of a lot more than I give myself credit for.
  • Mental illness stigma is still very strong, there is no point of telling every friends or family about my mental illness especially since I’m extremely sensitive on the given topic.
  • Miracles do happen.
  • I can live with this illness and…

I can’t really agree with all of these, especially about friends that don’t give a fuck. They do in their way and sometimes we have trouble understanding it. I know I really do. My brain tries to twist so it feels like no one cares but that is not the reality.

Sometimes you can’t help but fall in love(fixed or not). 

Again, I agree with the positive ones but not so much everything.

Yeah, we all have different opinions and different ways of thinking, but I’ve just had horrible and rotten experiences with friends who I considered family.

I’d rather just be alone and face my own problems alone.

I had the same experience with friends and family as well, so you aren’t alone in that regard. I’m not even talking to more than half of them! They caused me great anguish when they forced me out of my home and into another state to live with a internet friend, only to make me scapegoat for everything, among other shit they pulled.

Wonderful family indeed.

Some of my ex friends haven’t been better either.

But I like to think there are some good eggs left there. It can’t all be bad.

That’s fine ;D You rather not be with someone and that is understandable. It’s everyone’s personal choice really. 

bipolarbearschristmasstories:

  • I’m capable of a lot more than I give myself credit for.
  • Mental illness stigma is still very strong, there is no point of telling every friends or family about my mental illness especially since I’m extremely sensitive on the given topic.
  • Miracles do happen.
  • I can live with this illness and…

I can’t really agree with all of these, especially about friends that don’t give a fuck. They do in their way and sometimes we have trouble understanding it. I know I really do. My brain tries to twist so it feels like no one cares but that is not the reality.

Sometimes you can’t help but fall in love(fixed or not). 

Again, I agree with the positive ones but not so much everything.

I only had four hours of sleep today, this morning. I had a very disturbing and highly horrifyingly dream, so much that I don’t wish to sleep again even if I am purely exhausted in every way.

It involved a few family members including my deceased grandfather, my aunt, my deceased young uncle etc; essentially as my grandfather was physically assaulting me by slapping me and threatening/calling.names towards. It came to a climax and I woke up sobbing.

Enough is enough I think. It didn’t help that I have been fending off fevers for the last week coupled with my raising anxiety and increased bipolar/manic state within the last month…

A much needed reduction is what I plan to do on my social networking sites. I think this is for the best, though I got my insurance card in the mail.. I’m happy at least but frightened of what lies ahead.

Is it possible to be in a very super sensitive mood these days? I think so.

I’ve been crying about mostly everything. I can’t do anything without crying or feeling the urge to, even though my tears have yet to recover.

I know my bf has noticed the swift change and the tears.

I know they say there are triggers but the thing, I feel like my whole life is a trigger and things that bothered me before or even annoyed me, have gotten worse in my mind. It’s like someone breathing is just so wrong to me and I freak out.

how can you stop a life that is just a big mess from the start? 

I’ve certainly been trying to fix it and it’s not working and I’ve even had to start over and over. I guess, I’ve lost what sort of goal I’m looking for.

Not my fault.

I’ve just been up in my head so much. So unwell.

Not my fault to look for something I don’t know of.

thestoryofabipolarbear:

Demi Lovato and her bipolar disorder.

I know there are a few of my followers that love Demi Lovato and such.

I loved her in Barney and Sonny in the Chance and other shows. She’s cute and bubbly.

However, that doesn’t mean just because she has bipolar disorder and I have bipolar disorder, I’m…

You put how I feel about her in so many words, thank you, seriously.

I do feel like the word bipolar is thrown around so damn much, it’s ridiculous. She may or may not have but the point still remains. 

People still don’t understand, just because someone doesn’t show something physically wrong doesn’t mean they don’t have a problem mentally.

We, people that have mental disorders do know how to hide the craziness from others. We know how fake it or hold it in so others don’t know, but to say that this or that can’t be possibly just because they haven’t said it, is ridiculous.

Just because it was done in the old days, doesn’t make it right now. We know a lot better. We know the mind can only take so much and is so very sensitive.

It isn’t so resilient like the body.

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