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The Story of a Bipolar Bear.: Dear friends and family who I’m afraid of telling about my mental...

thestoryofabipolarbear:

Dear friends and family who I’m afraid of telling about my mental illness,

I’m come to terms with my illness.

I’m not afraid of it nor do I really expect anything from you such as support or anything.

I am just afraid of the stigma.

It’s hard enough receiving hateful messages and such from…

Always afraid of others judging me because of this and I’ve had that happen too many times. It really does suck.

2012 Resolutions

- Get well(get on medication)

- Get things fixed in the bathroom

- Have a better relationship with my bf

Basically it really. I don’t put losing weight on there because I’ve already been losing weight and I’m handling it just fine. 

Bipolar Bear's Christmas Stories.: twilight-perfection: thestoryofabipolarbear: We pour our feelings out...

twilight-perfection:

thestoryofabipolarbear:

We pour our feelings out to that one significant person in our lives.

We don’t realize how much it hurts them more than it hurts us.

Seeing and hearing you in such a state cannot only break them, but also cause intense feelings that they…

 Of course it hurts but they handle it well enough to be my strength when I have none. They are strong and they understand. They are the ones that reassure me that I’ll be okay and I do need it.

To me, it does have to do with burden because it is the very definition of what I go through. So, it has to do with burden in a sense.

thestoryofabipolarbear:

We pour our feelings out to that one significant person in our lives.

We don’t realize how much it hurts them more than it hurts us.

Seeing and hearing you in such a state cannot only break them, but also cause intense feelings that they need to avoid to help you.

Despite that, remember no one is ever stable to handle any situation.

No matter how strong they seem.

I don’t believe that at all.

That’s not what experiences have taught me and especially from the people that care about me and have seen me go through bad experiences with my bipolar. 

persephonesdescent:

diaryofabpdgirl:

Avoidant personality disorder (sometimes abbreviated APD or AvPD), or  anxious personality disorder, is a personality disorder characterised  by a pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, and  extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation. People with avoidant  personality disorder often consider themselves to be socially inept or  personally unappealing, and avoid social interaction for fear of being  ridiculed or humiliated.
Avoidant  personality disorder usually is first noticed in early adulthood, and  is associated with perceived or actual rejection by parent or peers  during childhood. Whether the rejection is due to the extreme  interpersonal monitoring attributed to people with the disorder is still  an open question.
As requested by Anonymous. :-)

The reason I’m a total recluse and tend to only leave my house once every few weeks and sometimes months.

Sounds a bit like me honestly.

persephonesdescent:

diaryofabpdgirl:

Avoidant personality disorder (sometimes abbreviated APD or AvPD), or anxious personality disorder, is a personality disorder characterised by a pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, and extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation. People with avoidant personality disorder often consider themselves to be socially inept or personally unappealing, and avoid social interaction for fear of being ridiculed or humiliated.

Avoidant personality disorder usually is first noticed in early adulthood, and is associated with perceived or actual rejection by parent or peers during childhood. Whether the rejection is due to the extreme interpersonal monitoring attributed to people with the disorder is still an open question.

As requested by Anonymous. :-)

The reason I’m a total recluse and tend to only leave my house once every few weeks and sometimes months.

Sounds a bit like me honestly.

Is it just me or do the names of atypical antipsychotics sound like Pokemon?

riceballinafruitsbasket:

Abilify

Seroquel

Geodon

Latuda

Seriously, they’re Pokemon names! I swear.

I can see why you’d say that..but even still…I don’t really associate pokemon to anti psychotics or even their names. 

Bipolar Bear's Christmas Stories.: What I've learned this year.

bipolarbearschristmasstories:

twilight-perfection:

bipolarbearschristmasstories:

  • I’m capable of a lot more than I give myself credit for.
  • Mental illness stigma is still very strong, there is no point of telling every friends or family about my mental illness especially since I’m extremely sensitive on the given topic.
  • Miracles do happen.
  • I can live with this illness and…

I can’t really agree with all of these, especially about friends that don’t give a fuck. They do in their way and sometimes we have trouble understanding it. I know I really do. My brain tries to twist so it feels like no one cares but that is not the reality.

Sometimes you can’t help but fall in love(fixed or not). 

Again, I agree with the positive ones but not so much everything.

Yeah, we all have different opinions and different ways of thinking, but I’ve just had horrible and rotten experiences with friends who I considered family.

I’d rather just be alone and face my own problems alone.

I had the same experience with friends and family as well, so you aren’t alone in that regard. I’m not even talking to more than half of them! They caused me great anguish when they forced me out of my home and into another state to live with a internet friend, only to make me scapegoat for everything, among other shit they pulled.

Wonderful family indeed.

Some of my ex friends haven’t been better either.

But I like to think there are some good eggs left there. It can’t all be bad.

That’s fine ;D You rather not be with someone and that is understandable. It’s everyone’s personal choice really.